Health is Wealth: Day of Rest - Day 28/243 #RUN #YOGA

Letting go gives us freedom, and freedom is the only condition for happiness. If, in our heart, we still cling to anything — anger, anxiety, or possessions — we cannot be free.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

HRV Score: 51
Relative Balance: 7 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 8h 27m
Overall morning mood: Woke up feeling pretty damn good! We fucked twice before getting out of bed at 9am. Best way to start the day. After lounging in bed so late, I was just too antsy to rest, so I went to the gym for a short run and stretch. As my feet hit the ground, I was up and at it and ready to go. I am glad that today was the last day of the active recovery week.

Meditation: 10 minutes

Home: Yoga - Day 28 - Playful Yoga Practice

Gym: Cardio Lite

  1. Grand Staircase Warm up

    1. 1 mile

    2. 15min

    3. EG: 450td

  2. Trinity Mountains Run

    1. 30min

    2. 3.37miles

    3. EG: 00ft

    4. Average HR: 126, Max: 147.

Yoga: Corepower C1 Class

  1. Class #12

  2. 60 minutes

  3. Average HR: 95, Max 144

  4. Notes: Class was taught by Gretchen at the Rosedale CorePower. Class was great, as usual! It was fun to go with Jess. I always enjoy going to workouts with her. Gretchen puts on a great class that is a work out, but also has an incredibly calming effect as well.

    1. I am noticing strength building in my core. As we get to the bicycle kicks I am not quite to the point where I feel I can do straight leg kicks with the twist, but I am past the point of just holding my knees above my hips while just keep my calves parallel to the ground. I extend the legs, but in a slow and controlled fashion.

    2. Gretchen adjusted me while I was in pigeon. It felt like she squared my hips while simultaneously putting pressure on my back. The stretch felt amazing and deep. Something that is difficult to accomplish in the position by yourself.

    3. I can’t say that I learned anything in particular today. I was doing my best to just focus on breathing.

    4. I felt my head space was great today, class seemed to fly. I could’ve practiced for another a couple of hours easily it seemed. Thanks Gretchen for spending an hour with us. Infinite Love & Gratitude!

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The Corner of 8th & Insanity: The ego is complicated. To be brief about our conversation last night. It is your ego that takes offense, feels slight or unappreciative, as a result of how it receives and twists words. Step back, and breathe. The ego self centered that always wants to enlarge itself. The ego is not you. The more you relax, the easier it will be to feel through situations. There is absolutely very little reason to get legitimately upset. Be the Calm.

Different people in your life, evoke different emotional patterns. But it is your ego that attaches to frustration, anger, and resentment. You are conscious enough to know when these thoughts and feelings start to present themselves. Continue to work on letting them go. While gratitude is important, so is compassion and understanding. Nobody is going to think like you do, nor have the same life experiences as you. So, again…compassion. All it takes is understanding that they are where they are, and that is where they are supposed to be. They are walking their path and that is their choice. Not yours. There is no shortage of love. Apathy is a self-imposed illusion that you can drop the moment you allow yourself to open up.

Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison [the delusion of separateness] by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty. - Albert Einstein

Realize that destructive patterns are a result of inner suffering. It is a vicious cycle as you tend to treat others how you feel about yourself. It is imperative that you allow compassion to shine through. Compassion allows you to be understanding and love regardless. By connecting and understanding to other’s suffering, know that you too have been there and could very easily be back in the same boat. There is no room for apathy in you. Everyone is deserving of love and happiness.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth - Week 5 Schedule #RUN #YOGA

The only thing you need to do is feel good now.

MONDAY: Strength Circuit
YOGA DAY 29 - Sweet Surrender
MONDAY: REST DAY
Yoga: Corepower C1


TUESDAY: STABILITY CIRCUIT
YOGA DAY 30 - Find What Feels Good
Yoga: Corepower C1

WEDNESDAY: Strength Circuit
PT & Chiropractic Work
Yoga: Corepower C2


THURSDAY: STABILITY CIRCUIT + CARDIO - (30min Aerobic Run)
Yoga: Corepower C2


FRIDAY: Rest Day


SATURDAY: Strength Circuit + CARDIO (30min Aerobic Run)
Yoga: Corepower C1

SUNDAY: Cardio Day - 60min Aerobic Run
Yoga: Corepower C1


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 27/243 #RUN #YOGA

To define “your” life is to limit it, and to limit it... is to create false beliefs . . .
If you learn to practice love, compassion, joy, and equanimity, you will know how to heal the illnesses of anger, sorrow, insecurity, sadness, hatred, loneliness, and unhealthy attachments.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

HRV Score: 53
Relative Balance: 8 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 8h 27m
Overall morning mood: Felt sluggish and tired from the minute I woke up. I felt Like I slept alright but my eyes did not want to stay open. Alright mood, fucked twice, ate breakfast and headed out to the in-laws. Discussion in the car didn’t improve my mood as I let a few things get to me that I shouldn’t have. Wasn’t looking forward to a birthday part at a brewery. I don’t drink alcohol for two reasons…1. It taste like shit and 2. Its poison for the mind & body. Just one of those day I struggled for no apparent reason.

Meditation: 10 minutes

Home: Yoga - Day 27 - Flexible, Fearless, & Fun

Gym: Stability Circuit (Active Recovery Week - Half Sets) 2x

  1. Elliptical - GrandStaircase Warm Up 4%

    1. 1 mile

    2. 8m 24s

    3. EG: 592ft

    4. Ave Hr 113

  2. Trinity Mountain Run - 0%

    1. 45 minutes

    2. Aerobic

    3. 5.08 miles

    4. Average HR: 135

  3. Stabilitly Circuit 2 - Active Recovery Week - 2x

    1. Standard Pull Ups - 2 x 10

    2. Dumb-bell Squats (Dumb bell held under chin) - 2 x 15 @35lbs

    3. Standing Cable Pulls - 2 x 20 @20lbs

    4. Standard Push ups - 2 x 20

    5. Hip Extensions on Stability Ball - 2 x 20 W/5sec pause

    6. Dumb bell Chek Press - 2 x 15 @10lbs

    7. Stability Ball Seated Cable Rotations - 2 x 12/side @ 15lbs

    8. Russian Leg Curls - 2 x 4

Keeping your body healthy is an expression of gratitude to the whole cosmos; trees, clouds, everything.
— Thích Nhat Hanh

Notes: Gym went exceptionally well. It was an active recovery week, so half the sets were name of the game. I hopped on the treadmill and was able to keep my heart rate down easier than usual. You know, one of the key take away’s from yesterday’s Yoga class was matching breath to the intensity of the exorcise. As I was running, I was taking deeper breathes through the nose and pushing out through the mouth just a little more than usual. It was awesome. I felt energized and ready to go after my run. I was only supposed to run for 15-20 minutes, but as I was breathing, I just sort of zoned out. Either way, It felt great on the body from the head down to my toes and my heart rate never breached 145.

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If you want to conquer the anxiety of life, live in the moment, live in the breath.
— Amit Ray

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: Today you had an opportunity to open some doors to conversation or perhaps step back and respond to this similar issue a different way. But you didn’t. I mean, it was a pretty clear failure at an opportunity. Don’t worry, I am sure it will arise again and you will be given a another chance. When it does, remember this conversation we had. It would be quite beneficial. Remember, frustration is that of the ego. There was no reason to take that which was said in a personal way. And you did, and proceed to swing to an extreme. It was your ego telling you to feel like a failure. Ego man, EGO. That heart of yours is to remain open…work, breathe through it.

Asking a woman to analyze or fry to fix her own emotions is a negation of her feminine core, which is pure energy in motion, like the ocean. She can learn to surrender her mood to the universe, she can learn to open her heart in the midst of closure, she can learn to relax her edges and trust love, but she will never ‘fix’ anything by analyzing her ‘problem.”

Here is the deal.. she doesn’t want to have to help you. She doesn’t want to figure it out for you. She wants to be able to trust you in your direction, but for her to be able to do that, you need to help her surrender. She needs to trust that you can be strong and stable in your presence, so that she can just let go. She wants to surrender the limits she has put on her feelings. But again, you need to be full as fuck in your love, unwavering and steady. In doing that she will be able to trust the force of love, she will open her heart and love will naturally overflow from that state of pure happiness.

Love her with your whole body. Keep your heart open and breathe through it. She is happiest when she is relaxed in her mind and her heart. “The feminine energy itself is undirected but immense, like the wind and deep currents of the ocean, ever changing, beautiful, destructive and the source of life.” The lesson today, is you have no reason to make any other possible decision than to lean into her with your love always and fully. Til tomorrow…


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Cardio Day - Day 26/243

To put a few “non-things” into a time, space, and material perspective, it’s as if all the love that now bathes the world, comes from a heart 7 zillion times larger than your sun.

Your “guardian angel” is so gigantic, her halo would reach the moon.

And your ultimate happiness is so assured, we’ve been celebrating your life since the day you were born.

Yeah, you insisted -
— The Universe

HRV Score: 56
Relative Balance: 10 (Parasympathetic)
Sleep: 8hr 37m
Overall morning mood: Woke up early and was ready to hit the day. I wa so excited to run, that I bolted to the gym as soon as my feet hit the floor without realizing I didn’t sit down to meditate first.

Home: Yoga - Day 26 - Earth Practice, Total Body Yoga

Gym:

  1. Walking Warm Up - Grand Staircase 6%

    1. 20 minutes

    2. 1 mile

    3. EG: 375ft

  2. Run South Island, NZ: 0%

    1. 45min

    2. 5.08miles

    3. Average HR: 132

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Class #11

  2. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  3. Average HR: 106

  4. Notes: Kathy B was our instructor today and I keep saying this, but definitely one of my favorite classes. What a fucking Boss. You could feel her presence in the room, that is for sure. She reminded me of this room mate in Scottsdale I had that had crazy amount of charisma and confidence. You could feel it.

    1. So far, I have poured the most amount sweat in Nico & Kathy’s C1 classes (not including the two C2 classes I’ve attended). Its definitely a purging kind of sweat. Feels great.

    2. Her choice of tunes was spot on and definitely what I needed today especially during the core work part of the flow. It was that kind of music that drowns out the screaming of your muscle.

    3. Perhaps it was just the kind of mood I was in, but a lot of the time I felt like she was talking to me. Numerous times hearing soften your face, tilt your hips, square your shoulders, reach higher, fucking breathe! Ha One thing that really stuck out was hearing her say that the deepness of your breath needed to match the intensity of your muscle. I can’t remember verbatim, but it was along those lines and it made sense it my head.

    4. She adjusted me in two different positions, that I can remember. The first being, Parivṛtta Aṅjaneyāsana or revolved crescent lunge. I asked her after class what exactly she did because she had her hands on my shoulder and what felt like she pulling backwards and she said she was just helping me deepen the pose and twist. I thought for a second my rear leg was going to vibrate right off my body it was shaking so bad. haha The second was in Eka Pada Rajakapotasana or pigeon. Where in this I think she just helped square my hips a little more.

    5. I haven’t put it all together yet, but I feel like my flexibility is strengthening in some areas where I haven’t seen much improvement in others. I believe I will in time. Sometimes, it’s just frustrating getting older. Partly, because I know where I used to be and partly because I let it go. I suppose your priorities change at different times in your life, it’s just shitty I let my health and body go. Live and you learn..

    6. Anyway, class was rad. I believe my next class with her is the Friday after Thanksgiving. Thanks again Kathy - Infinite Love & Gratitude!

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Corner of 8th & Insanity: You had a pretty good day, however you know what you missed. Meditation. It was enough to let some meaningless work bullshit knock you off your game midway through the day. You were off to a great start especially on that run. Those thoughts were spot on and you followed through with every one. Trust in the synchronicity. When you see those numbers falling in line, you know you are the right path. Every time you looked at your watch or the screen the numbers were popping out at you. It has worked every time… Just feel it through. I know you were going to rest this afternoon, but heading to Yoga was the right choice. It’s late, so tonight will be brief. Forgive yourself for your mistakes. You are at least at place where you have become aware of your thoughts, and the know how to take a step back first before acting..or speaking. Speaking of which… what did you learn today while reading? If what you are about to say, isn’t more beautiful than silence, don’t say it. Good night, catch you on the corner tomorrow…


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stabiltity Circuit - Day 25/243 #RUN #YOGA

You don’t even have to know what you want. I’ll take care of that. Just enjoy that you received another day, and the 10,000 miracles within it.

It’s on me...
— The Universe

HRV Score: 58
Relative Balance: 9 (Parasympathetic)
Sleep: 6hr 15min
Overall mood: I knew I was lacking sleep when I woke but still felt pretty damn good. I stayed up late, watching The Outlaw King on NFLX. Not sure why. ha.

Meditation: 7:46am - 10min - 396Hz

Home: Day 25 - Dancing Warrior Sequence

Happiness is lighter than a feather,
no one can grasp it.
Suffering is heavier than the earth,
no one can let it go.
— Zhuangzi

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  2. Class #10

  3. Average HR: 106

  4. Notes: Ella was our teacher for the C1 class today. Class was awesome. It was only me and one other male student. It was apparent that she had been teaching for quite a while, I thought she was fantastic. It was tough to hear her at times when she was on the other side of the room, but that was also partly due to the music. I particularly enjoyed her emphasis on breath and breathing. Not that the other teachers dont, it just seemed to me, that there was more emphasis placed on breath today. That could also be because there was only two of us in the class, both men, and probably weren’t breathing well! haha. Either way, the more I have attended the C1 classes, the more comfortable I have become with the sequence and pose names.. and it allows me to focus on breathing.

    1. I could tell that I was a little tight from the beginning. I think my body needs a break from class tomorrow. We’ll see how I feel when I wake up. I did have Nico’s advice running in the back of my mind particularity during the Chaturanga Dandasana trying to make sure my hands were close enough to my rib cage. Ella pointed out that my hands and feet should be in the same place in Adho mukha śvānāsana (downward-facing dog) as Chaturanga Dandasana. That helped significantly and made complete sense. I cannot say that downward facing dog is a resting position at this moment in time.

    2. Another moment in class where breath was emphasized was when we were working on Bakasana, Crow pose. I never felt like i had done this pose before while not breathing, but it is apparent now that I definitely was restricting my breathe. The deeper, more full breathes I took, the easier the balance felt. Craziness!

    3. Two poses that I struggle with currently that I want to focus on are Garudasana (eagle pose), as I am not able to completely intertwine my arms and hands. Im not sure if it is due to a tight chest, back or shoulders, Ill ask tomorrow. So I just place my hands on my elbows. I also struggle with keeping my knees completely in line in Parivrtta Utka Asana (Revolved Chair Pose). I felt like I did a pretty good job today, but it took a lot of focus and I ended up falling out of the twist when we twisted to the left. I am excited for these two poses though however, they are weaknesses that have been discovered AND!!!! …. That chair pose in general, fucking drills my inner quads which I know needs work. Exciting stuff. This will help my biking for sure.

    4. Again, class was great. I have yet to attend a class I haven’t enjoyed. After how much sweat poured out of me yesterday I bough a new mat at LULU and the smell was awful. It was tough to get past it today, but I managed. It will go away, it will just take some time sweating and cleaning it I am sure.

    5. We spoke for a while after class. As usual my mouth wouldn’t stop moving. Although, i do have to say I really enjoy the constructive criticism that teachers provide after class. It helps a lot. Ella, Thank you. Infinite Love & Gratitude!

    6. “Breathe…Your breath fuels the fire.”

Gym: Stability Circuit Active Recovery Week - 2x

  1. REACH-BACKS - 15/SIDE
    2. CLAM SHELLS - 15/SIDE
    3. PRONE COBRA - 30SEC UP/30 SEC REST X4
    4. HIP EXTENSIONS - 20 W/10 SEC HOLD AT TOP
    5. SEATED TUMMY VACUUM’S - 25 BREATHS
    6. PRONE PLANK - 60/90/120 SECONDS

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Eternity must be a man’s home, moment by moment. Without it, he is lost, always striving, grasping at puffs of smoke. A man must do anything necessary to glimpse, and then stabilize, this ever fresh realization, and organize his life around it.
— Deida

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: Is it a surprise to you how much you have taken to attending Yoga? Do you think there is a reason? Well make our discussion short this evening, but there are a few things I want to mention.

You need to make your life an ongoing process of being who you are, at your deepest, most easeful levels of self. No matter what it is, if you are not living, not consciously making decisions from this truest version of yourself, the results will be superficial and empty. Do you understand what I am saying? This source of who you are, is what you need to live in. We have been discussing ego quite a bit lately. The forms and names the ego takes on. The ego clings to the superficial and shallow. Dig deeper.

You did an incredible job and forcing yourself to meditate this week. It only took one time for you to realize and reap even the slightest of benefits that come with consistent practice. Stay on the path. Continue to practice, continue reading and studying because these are the things that inspire you to live and be the truth. Your truest you. Continue to seek out those that are going to help you grow. Everyone has responsibilities that take your attention away day to day, but even in these moments, try and live from that deepest source. Love. Everyday is a gift. The more you live from this source, the easier it will be to play life with love, humor and appreciation for what it really is.

I am proud of how your handled yourself today. The universe is and will continue to test you with the same problem, the same circumstance until you learn the lesson. You have been putting in much work with the ego, again, stay at it. There is no end here, enjoy the process and every bit it. Or what is the point?

Happiness is your natural state. Problems come and go. The way you feel depends on what you choose to hold onto.

LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Rest Day - Day 24/243 #RUN #YOGA

Do you know what tickles me?

Besides you, of course...

For every single time-space manifestation, from catching a cold to the accumulation of massive personal wealth, a shifting of props and persons must be choreographed from here with mind-boggling precision. Taking into account not only all of your other thoughts, beliefs, and expectations as they change from moment to moment, but those of everyone else on the planet, so that not one of you, not one, is ever denied getting exactly what you think about.

And to answer the often unasked question, “Yes, you can still have it all, no matter what others in your life might think, say, or do.”
— The Universe

HRV Score: 48
Relative Balance: 6 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 8hr 36m
Overall morning mood: I woke up around 3a and was having some pretty lucid dreams that weren’t the most pleasant. I had a difficult time falling back asleep after that. When I did fall back asleep, I ended up snoozing my alarm and woke up thirty minutes late in a panic.

Meditation: 10 minutes - 174hZ

Home: Yoga - Day 24 - Gentle Tummy Yoga

CorePower - Yoga C1 Class

  1. Class #9

  2. 60 minutes

  3. Average HR 93, High was 157

  4. Notes: At first, I was hesitant to go as it was a rest day but I am glad that I went. I was sweating up a storm, which hasn’t been the case in the C1 classes I have taken. The sweat felt good, but need to get a better mat.

    1. Nico was the instructor for the class. I could tell he was irritated when I was at the desk when he walked out of the class he was teaching previously, however i believe it was due to the woman who was cleaning at the moment opening the door early as I heard him say, “ Yeah, don’t do that again.” haha The tone in his voice gave me a good chuckle, inside of course! Sorry Nico. Ha. On the flip side, I thought his class was awesome and provided the most amount of feed back I have received thus far of my practice. It was appreciated so much! I love constructive criticism.

    2. My mind wasn’t entirely present when I first settled into class. Normally, i fixate my gaze into a corner of the hardwood about 5-6 feet in front of my mat and keep it there. Today, I was distracted by movement in my peripheral vision. I don’t remember if he mentioned setting an intention. He probably did, I just was stuck in my own head, I am sure. My intention was what it has been, I am calm. As we transitioned into the core work part of the flow, I changed my intention from I am Calm, to I am focused. I believe it helped. I knew that standing balance postures were coming up and I knew that I had to focus or I would be falling on my ass.

    3. On to what I learned. Like I said, Nico provided the most amount of feedback both during and after class. SO THANKFUL! To begin, in Chaturanga Dandasana my hands were placed too far forward as it allowed for my chest to collapse. By shifting my hands back and closer to my rib cage, I felt the muscle contract more in my triceps and lower chest. Secondly, in Trikonasana just need open the chest a little more. He also mentioned that in reverse triangle the initial thought is to bend backwards while it is intention is to lift up with the arm and open up the chest while the rear arm just rests gently on the rear leg.

      1. As noted in my journal yesterday, I had a question about my knees shifting in Parivrtta Utka Asana or Revolved Chair Pose. He seemed to have read my mind and discussed it in class. He did say that shifted correctly as I shifted back into my heels slightly more so that my knees remained in line. I struggled with this pose today and could feel it it my inner quads. Muscles that definitely need some work!

        1. Interesting! I just learned that Utkata means powerful or fierce..

        2. I might be forgetting some others, and will add more later if they come to mind.

        3. Perhaps I talk too much. I just need to shut my yap and listen. Listen more, and listen to learn. Stop fucking listening to respond. Bad habit. That is something I have to focus on.

    4. All in all a great class and I look forward to taking another of his classes.

      1. Infinite Love & Gratitude

Change is not something that we should fear. Rather, it is something that we should welcome. For without change, nothing in this world would ever grow or blossom, and no one in this world would ever move forward to become the person they’re meant to be.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: You need to be aware that your ego takes on many names. Resentment and judgement are two that come to mind that we need need to talk about and you most definitely need to work on. You are on a path and to you it feels right. You core set of beliefs are changing and evolving. That is okay. As you begin to awaken you are going to have a lot of questions. Questions you may not find answers to for sometime. Be patient. You are not alone walking, but remember people out there are on their own path. They are at their own place at their own pace. That is okay too. You and I may believe things should be a certain way, that people should be or act in a certain way. But it is no your place or mine to judge their behavior on a grand scale. Accept what is! Yes, you are correct in the sense that if someone is toxic, to remove them from your life. That isn’t necessarily passing judgment, that is making a decision to whom you choose to share your energy with. What I am talking about is the thoughts in your conscious mind. The negative and ill thoughts towards other based on their decisions. If you don’t agree with them, it is your responsibility to be the shining light in your world and to set an example. You have no room or place in your heart to judge others. You too have made mistakes. You too have chosen to act in a way or behaved in a away that you are not proud of. It is because of those mistakes you are where you are. It is why you know what you know. Because you are starting to see the light, you have no pedestal to stand on. They may not be perfect…neither are you. Chill out. Be happy. Be an example. That is how you see the change, you need to be the change.

Within our true selves is a constant state of love.

Love in your heart. And that is the language we all share and speak. Judgmental attitude effects every aspect of your life. It casts a cloud over your vision and your ability to step back and be compassionate. These moments of judgment are another version of self hate that you are working towards ridding yourself of. If any of them, it may be your biggest hurdle, but I have confidence that you will over come. It is a process and will not happen over night. Nobody expects it to. Love is the answer…Unconditional acceptance is the answer. Another way to look at it is, their behavior…like your behavior and choices are a part of your path. They are inherently important because they are keys to who you and they are becoming. It is necessary hurtle for them to over come as it is you. Be patient. Be accepting. Mistakes are a part of life and they are part of the exploration. Be the person that learns from mistakes. That is the type of person that we all love.

When we practice love and acceptance, it becomes our initial and natural response.
— Karen Neverland

Isn’t it funny how the ego has its way of playing these games with us? The ego want s to grow and builds itself up. Its sees survive, remember? I have been watching you closing and I can see that you are getting better addressing your ego. Keep at it. Keep doing what you are doing. Meditation and yoga allow you calm yourself. It is in that ability to remain calm, that you can step back when the ego presents an idea, and you are able to make a conscious choice. That is how we get better. That is conscious living.

The more you learn to love yourself, you will realize that subconscious monsters exist, but you are not surprised when they arise. Because in that true love, that true acceptance, you realize that is what disolves them in the first place! Flood those shadows with light my man. The point in this is that when you feel strongly about something, you know when you see something you don’t agree with, judgment may arise. Step back, forgive yourself of the thoughts and let them go. Replace them with positive vibes and send them back out into the universe. You got this.

Old solutions are only of use when applied to old problems. If you want to be creative, try to forget that you have all the experience.

LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 23/243 #RUN #YOGA

Baby souls see what’s wrong.
Young souls see what’s right.
And old souls, know better.
— The Universe

HRV Score: 53
Relative Balance: 8 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 5m
Overall morning mood: Felt fucking fantastic. Got plenty of sleep and was coming off the previous day’s good mood. Super proud that I was able to get to the floor and meditate both yesterday and this morning. Will keep the ball rolling and incorporate it into my morning routine to force the habit.

Meditation: 15 minutes

Home: Yoga - Day 23 - Freedom & Forgiveness

Gym: Stability Circuit (Active Recover Week - Half Sets) 2x

  1. Walk - GrandStaircase Warm Up 6%

    1. 1 mile

    2. 15 minutes

    3. EG: 200ft

    4. Ave Hr 124

  2. Trinity Mountain Run - 20 minutes

    1. Aerobic

    2. 2.27miles

    3. Average HR: 138

  3. Standard Pull Ups - 3 x 10

  4. Dumb-bell Squats (Dumb bell held under chin) - 3 x 15 @35lbs

  5. Standing Cable Pulls - 3 x 20 @20lbs

  6. Standard Push ups - 3 x 20

  7. Hip Extensions on Stability Ball - 3 x 20 W/5sec pause

  8. Dumb bell Chek Press - 3 x 15 @10lbs

  9. Stability Ball Seated Cable Rotations - 3 x 12/side @ 15lbs

  10. Russian Leg Curls - 1 x 5, 1 x 4, 1 x 3

CorePower: C1 Class

  1. Class #8

  2. 60min

  3. Average HR: 101

  4. Notes: Class was taught bought by Ellen. She was great and inviting from when I walked in. Definitely smiling. Class was amazing. She did assist me with a seated forward fold. I have come a long way already in that position, but I want to get my head to me knees.

  5. Can’t say I learned anything in particular other that my old bod is still a bit tight! haha. During the chair to twist poses, I was doing my best to keep my knees in line. I was wondering if one knee started to drop, did that mean I was twisting from my hips and not my core? I mean to ask after class but I forgot.

  6. After attending classes for a week, it feels a lot better flowing from pose to pose, as I have a better idea of what they are. I appreciate the early cues, as in maybe 3-4 breathes prior to the transition. Where I have noticed the most improvement is really just in my overall flexibility, It has only been a week, but i have noticed it especially in pigeon. It feels so damn good sinking those hips all the way to the ground. If I had to pick on thing I learned in this class particularly, it would be that flow from chaturanga to up dog. I was kind of blending them together and not breathing thru them correctly. It will all come! Patience, and self love, which was the intention I have been setting for most classes. I am calm. I love myself. Every class, my breathing improves, which is awesome ;)

The subject tonight is Love.
And for tomorrow night as well...
As a matter of Fact, I know of no better
topic for us to discuss until we all die!
— Hafiz

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: First off, I want to say that I am proud of you for taking the time to sit down and meditate yesterday. And believe it or not, again today! Every nitwit on the interweb has a different number, but you know what they say. It takes time to force and create a habit. I want you to continue to force yourself to sit down and meditate every day, at a minimum for ten minutes. Can you see how calm an relaxed you are. It’s been a hell of a lot easier sitting back and making conscious decisions hasn’t it? I bet you haven’t even let a single thing get you worked up the last couple of days. You know, you have Yoga to thank for that as well. This is a new chapter for you, I am proud of you. Keep at it.

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.
— Marie Curie

Tonight we shall discuss fear a bit before I kick your ass to bed. Fear and worry are pretty close to one in the same. Listen, none and I mean none of this shit, fucking matters. You have to realize that first and foremost. You have been force fed a lie your entire life. Everyone has. Like there is this lack of anything you want on this planet. There is not. It is this giant circle jerk of bullshit. Go to school, get good grades, go to more school, get a job, work in a fucking box so you can buy a car and then a house, then you can remodel your goddamn kitchen. Then show it off on facebook, oh while you are at it don’t miss happy hour. How is it that it socially acceptable to revolve your whole fucking life around alcohol anyway. You know man - you got it right long ago. What is the point of drinking that poison just to piss that money out thirty minutes later? I dont get it. I know you don’t either. The point is, all of these things that seem to be these needs in people’s lives are really just shit that doesn’t matter. If you simplify your life, you eliminate stress, fear and worry from it. I know were on the same page on this. Am I preaching to the choir? I got off topic, I tend to rant.. so do you.. hahah We have that in common. Lets get back to this…Fear…Worry…

When you feel stress, epinephrine is at work in your body for quite a while. The question is, how healthy and how happy do you want to be? Because here is the deal, the more you let fear and worry run rampant within yourself, the more unhappy and unhealthy you will be. Stress is the silent killer. As you have seen since you started yoga, you have been calmer and more relaxed as a result. Your mind is clear. You really are starting to get it aren’t you? The beauty of this, is it is a giant puzzle for you to work through and I am happy you are enjoying it. Your fears are only fears of your ego. Remember that. And what do we do when the ego present itself? You take a step back, you breathe and accept it. You address it and make a conscious choice. You have to learn to love your fear. Why? It will help you transcend it.

There is an African parable that should help you understand a little better; When lions hunt on the savanna, they divide into two groups. The stronger group hides on one side of the prey. The weaker group goes to the other side and growls as loudly as possible. The prey then runs from the roar and their escape leads them right into the strong group’s trap. Moral of the story? In times of worry, or fear run towards that fucking ROAR. As you battle it our, poor choice of words…as you retrain your ego please please please remember that addressing your fear is no different than any other name you’ve given your ego. It will free you and that is what you want. You want that freedom to live consciously.

Get comfortable being uncomfortable. That is what is going to get you where you want to be.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Rest Day - Day 22/243

Low days exist to remind you that you still have choices.

High days, exist to remind you of how fast you rebound... among other things.
— The Universe

HRV Score: 60
Relative Balance: 7 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 7hr 39min
Overall morning mood: Felt great. Could feel I didn’t get enough sleep.

Home: Yoga - Day 22 Full Body Awareness

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  2. Average HR: 106

  3. C1 class was slower flow Vinyasa class with a warm room but not near as hot as the C2 class or Hot Yoga class. I loved it.

Notes: It was a rest day but was in a super fucking rad mood all day. Had told myself repeatedly that I needed to start practicing meditating. I have found it to be a struggle to get to the matte at home even for a couple of minutes. Today I forced myself to. I sat a timer and oddly enough, had no problem! It felt too soon when the ringer went off. All around good. day. Ill meet you at the Corner of 8th & Insanity tomorrow. Early to bed tonight, need more sleep!


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth - Week 4 Schedule

Happiness is the shortcut to anything you want in your life. If you can just manage to feel and be happy now, the rest will come.

MONDAY: Rest Day
YOGA DAY 22 - Full Body Awareness


TUESDAY: Stability Circuit
YOGA DAY 23 -Freedom & Forgiveness


WEDNESDAY: Rest Day
CHIROPRACTIC & PT WORK
YOGA DAY 24 - Gentle Tummy Yoga


THURSDAY: Stability Circuit
YOGA DAY 25 - Dancing Warrior Sequence


FRIDAY: Cardio Day (60min - Aerobic)
YOGA DAY 26 - Earth Practice, Total Body Yoga


SATURDAY: STABILITY CIRCUIT + Cardio
YOGA DAY 27 - Flexible, Fearless & Fun


SUNDAY: Rest Day
YOGA DAY 28 - Playful Yoga Practice


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Cardio Day - Day 21/232 #RUN

Brave are those who make decisions despite their fear, who are tormented by the Devil every step of the way and gripped by anxiety about their every action, wondering if they are right or wrong. And yet nevertheless, they act.
— Brida

HRV Score: 54
Relative Balance: 7 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 8hr 11min
Overall morning mood: Felt like I slept pretty well and in a pretty good mood. I did feel a little rushed and stressed but felt thru it and let it go as quickly as I could

Home: Yoga - Day 21 - Joyful Home Practice

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  2. Average HR: 106

  3. C1 class was slower flow Vinyasa class with a warm room but not near as hot as the C2 class or Hot Yoga class. I loved it.

Gym:

  1. Run South Island, NZ: 0%

    1. 60min

    2. 6.53mi

    3. Ave HR 138

    4. EG: 00 feet

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It is honorable for a man to admit his fears, resistance, and edge for practice. It is simply true that each man has hit limit, his capacity for growth, and his destiny. But it is dishonorable for him to lie to himself or others about his real place. He shouldn’t pretend he is more enlightened than he is. Nor should he stop short of his actual edge. The more a man is playing his real edge, the more valuable he is as good company for other men, the more he can be trusted to be authentic and fully present Where a man’s edge is located is less important than whether he is actually living his edge in truth, rather than being lazy or deluded.
— Deida

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: Here’s the deal dude… Fear. You are starting to wake up and the thing is, once you do, there is no turning back. You can’t. If you try, you will feel it every second of the day. If you were one thousand percent fearless, would you be doing what you are doing at this very moment to make a living? I know you wouldn’t. And you do know it too. I am proud of you for taking steps moving towards your full potential. Moving towards what makes you happiest. Give it your all. You are going to remember this conversation at point in time that you are giving every bit of yourself to it. I know you are bit afraid, it is the unknown. Well, truthfully, it may not even be the unknown. You have a vision in the back of your mind. You know what I am talking about. When you get there, it will be deja vu.. It will be as if you saw the future. Trust me man. Just fucking trust me.

You do not want to live a life that is secure and comfortable. That is the equivalent of dead. That type of life lacks aliveness, it lacks depth. Be inspired man. Be that inspirational energy of a man that lives at his fucking edge, constantly.. That is the example you want to set. And you know I am talking about. They came to mind instantly. That is your biggest fear. I know it. You know it. It is okay to have fears. That is normal. But get ready and be ready to fucking press those damn lips against them day in and day out.

A free man is free to acknowledge his fears, without hiding them, or hiding from them..
— Deida

LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 20/232 #RUN

Love is the Only thing that activates our intelligence and our creativity, that purifies and liberates us.
— The Zahir

HRV Score: 52
Relative Balance: 6 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 21min
Overall morning mood: I woke up with my mind running. I had received a text around 1am, that left me a bit unpleased that was work related. I read it about 2:30 when I woke up to use the bathroom and it was pretty vague so my mind was left to wonder how bad the incident was. When I woke up, I knew it was going to fuck with my HRV score which bothered me even more so I just said fuck it, lets go. Time to move!

Home: Yoga - Day 20 - Heart Practice
Yoga: Core Power C1 Class

Gym: Stability Circuit

  1. Trinity Mountain Run - 25 minutes

    1. Aerobic

    2. 3.45miles

    3. Average HR: 136. Max 145

  2. Standard Pull Ups - 3 x 10

  3. Dumb-bell Squats (Dumb bell held under chin) - 3 x 15 @35lbs

  4. Standing Cable Pulls - 3 x 20 @20lbs

  5. Standard Push ups - 3 x 20

  6. Hip Extensions on Stability Ball - 3 x 20 W/5sec pause

  7. Dumb bell Chek Press - 3 x 15 @10lbs

  8. Stability Ball Seated Cable Rotations - 3 x 12/side @ 15lbs

  9. Russian Leg Curls - 1 x 5, 1 x 4, 1 x 3

Notes: I spent the rest of the day resting for the most part. I knew I have a long cardio day tomorrow and then its an active rest week.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 19/232 #RUN

Do you really need someone else’s permission, acceptance, wink, or nod, or are you ready to give these to yourself? I say, “Ready. Now.”
— The Universe

HRV Score: 60
Relative Balance: 8 (Parasympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 21m
Overall mood: Had a great night of rest. I felt.

Home: Day 19 - Breath And Body Practice

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C2 Class.

  2. Average HR: 108

Gym: Stability Circuit 3x

  1. REACH-BACKS - 15/SIDE
    2. CLAM SHELLS - 15/SIDE
    3. PRONE COBRA - 30SEC UP/30 SEC REST X4
    4. HIP EXTENSIONS - 20 W/10 SEC HOLD AT TOP
    5. SEATED TUMMY VACUUM’S - 25 BREATHS
    6. PRONE PLANK - 60/90/120 SECONDS

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Most men make the error of thinking that one day it will be done. They think, “If I can work enough, then one day I could rest.” Or, “One day my woman will understand something and then she will stop complaining.” Or, “I’m only doing this now so that one day I can do what I really want with my life.” The masculine error is to think that eventually things will be different in some fundamental way. They won’t. It never ends. As long as life continues, the creative challenge is to tussle, play and make love with the present moment while giving your unique gift.
— David Deida

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: You woke up feeling great. The snow came hard over night. Winter is here. Kids were up and ready to go, Lu had her snow pants, gloves and hat from the year before that still fit. Bubs didn’t. Melt down. He made it abundantly clear that the rain/hunting boots he wore last year were not acceptable. This was your fault. He has a way of making you feel like a real piece of shit parent. I get it. You felt inadequate. You feel that you can do no right by him. And once again, you let him down. It was the first snow and you hadn’t been to the store to get him boots that fit. His words tear through you heart like to no other. I know what you’re feeling, but you have to remember that he is a kid. Things that seems like nothing to you can be monumental to him. It’s his age. Understanding. His emotions are running wild, he loves you. You know he does. And what he needs from you is more patience, love and understanding.

You let the day get worse from here. Well, you definitely rallied into the afternoon, thanks to your Yoga class but you let the morning crash. Do you know where you went wrong? What you could have done. You didn’t feel through it. All it would’ve taken is a good cry and it would’ve been over. You would’ve felt your way through this. Turn in and closing your heart is not the route to take, you have proven this time and time again. Again, you let that feeling inadequacy (your ego) and that self hate control the situation. You had a choice. Remember that? We already know the house is a mess. And there is too much shit. She isn’t your emotional punching bag. There was no reason that any of it should have been taken out on her. She deserves better than that, and you know it. Cleaning out the house, creating a calm clean and easily manageable environment would do you all tremendous good. BUT… you know what? After a morning of feeling like a crappy parent probably wasn’t the best time to bring that up. You know the head space you were in. Not. The. Time.

Closing down in the midst of pain is a denial of a man’s true nature. A superior man is free in feeling and action, even amidst great pain and hurt. If necessary, a man should live with a hurting heart rather than a closed one. He should learn to stay in the wound of pain and act with spontaneous skill and love even from that place.

If there is one thing that today proved to you, it is how much you need yoga in your life. ha. You know how calm and relaxed you felt after that class today. The weight was gone. Your head was clear and you felt full of love again. Breathe and feel through this shit man. It ain’t worth getting this worked up. Bubs is a kid and its just shit in the house that will eventually get tossed or donated. You know the right way to go about this. You know. I know you know. So fucking do it. She loves you. And will do anything for you, so give her that in return. I know you want to. Its just a matter of breathing in and breathing out the bullshit before you let your mouth fucking run. Simple man. It’s that fucking simple.

You know when your solar plexus becomes tense and contracted. This is a sign that of an unskillful reaction to hurt and pain. You contract, you tighten up and you close up. That is what happens dude. Your inability to breathe through even some of this minor bullshit. It is partly ego and you know it. That tension is a self protective mechanism, but when it happens, you are no longer free. If you want to be the example to your kids that you want to be, you have practice and force that fucking heart of yours open even in times of hurt. They are kids, you have a whole fucking lifetime a head of this, times three! If you want to learn to master these situations, truly master them, you have to breathe through it. Sit them down, look at them, breathe through it so that you can feel the entire situation. When you do, I promise, you will have a greater understanding and you will become the warrior of light that they need from you. You have it in you, I know you do. You got this. And remember, treat her like the queen that she is. She deserves you, the best version of you. A warrior of light…Til next time amigo.

Train your mind to see something good in everything.
— Buddhist Proverb

Live Fearless. Not Reckless.


Health is Wealth: Rest Day - Day 18/232 #RUN

At first we thought it would be really cool if only your “positive” thoughts became the things and events of your life.

But then we couldn’t think of any things or events that wouldn’t eventually be considered “positive,” so we decided to just leave you “turned on” all the time.

B-z-z-z-z-z-z-z-z...
— The Universe

HRV Score: 55
Relative Balance: 5 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 12m
Overall morning mood: Slept well. Knew it was a rest day and it was needed. Chill day.

Home: Yoga - Day 18 - Wonder Yoga

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  2. Average HR: 100

  3. C1 class was slower flow Vinyasa class with a warm room but not near as hot as the C2 class.

Faith is to believe what we do not see; and the reward of this faith is to see what we believe.
— St. Augustine

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LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 17/232

The trick to blending work and play, lies not in what you do, but in how you view what you do.

See work as play and see play as important - super, very.

Super, very important!
— The Universe
The Master acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and she lets them come;
things disappear and she lets them go.
— Lao Tzu

HRV Score: 56
Relative Balance: 9 (Parasympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 33min
Overall morning mood: I woke up feeling awesome. I felt like I slept like a rock. According to my Garmin, I got roughly 4h 15m of deep sleep which is high for me. Last night I googled best sound frequency to sleep to and Delta (less than 4 Hz) popped up so I thought I’d give it a shot. I had it playing in Bose speaker behind my bed relatively quiet. I found a playlist on Spotify and went with The Northern Lights on repeat. Gonna give another whirl tonight! We shall see how it goes. I was seeing crazy synchronicity all morning. I saw 1,111 steps, saw my heart rate at 111 numerous times when I checked my watch. Mileage I saw was 115454. The morning was great..

Home: Yoga - Day 17 - Happiness Boost Yoga

Gym: Stability Circuit

  1. Elliptical - Yosemite Warm Up (10min Warm up)

    1. 1 mile

    2. EG: 830ft

    3. Ave Hr 124

  2. Trinity Mountain Run - 25 minutes

    1. Aerobic

    2. 2.74miles

    3. Average HR: 146

  3. Standard Pull Ups - 3 x 10

  4. Dumb-bell Squats (Dumb bell held under chin) - 3 x 15 @35lbs

  5. Standing Cable Pulls - 3 x 20 @20lbs

  6. Standard Push ups - 3 x 20

  7. Hip Extensions on Stability Ball - 3 x 20 W/5sec pause

  8. Dumb bell Chek Press - 3 x 15 @10lbs

  9. Stability Ball Seated Cable Rotations - 3 x 12/side @ 15lbs

  10. Russian Leg Curls - 1 x 5, 1 x 4, 1 x 3

Notes: I forgot my chest strap, so I had to keep placing my hands on the Treadmill monitor to make sure my heart rate was staying under 145. I was. It was just a little frustrating. My Garmin Wrist Watch that has a hear rate monitor doesn’t work for shit. On a normal run, where my heart rate stays consistently between 135 and 140, my garmin will tell me I am running at 159-178 beats per minute. WTF. At some point during the run I started to feel tired. I could feel it coming both physically and mentally. I was initially going to run down town to read for a few hours before work but decided to head home instead. I ate..a lot and then took an hour nap. I noticed some tightness in my hips and a little soreness in my right shoulder. Tomorrow is a rest day. I think it is much needed. Frustrating, considering how great I felt this morning. Then a workout Friday-Sunday and then an active recovery week. I have a feeling I will be taking that recovery week abnormally slow. Probably a good thing..

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The more you are motivated by love, the more fearless and free your actions will be.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: You had a great start but the day fell apart. I can tell you still don’t entirely know or understand why. That’s okay…You know, Momma always said their would be days like this..perhaps your lesson in this is to slow down a bit. It appeared as though you rushed from one thing to another today. Slow down. Enjoy. Were you even fully present at your Chiropractic appointment. No, I don’t believe you were. You were thinking and trying to figure out if you were going to be able to hit up Core Power, and the complete your workout before getting to work. Your mind was running. That was a selfish move. Your brother took time out of his day, unpaid to help you. Yes you listened. And I know how appreciative you are of his help. Today, that was irrelevant. You weren’t present. At all. Even working out, I don’t believe your mind was there. Perhaps that is your lesson for the day. BE PRESENT. The day is over and it close to bed time. Learn from it, be aware of it. Let it go. Forgive yourself for it.

Dude- you are your own worst enemy. At the same time, you know yourself better than anyone else. We wanted to discuss this self love today. Self acceptance. Total self acceptance. You don’t get pick and choose which qualities to accept. Once you begin to accept yourself for who you are, your internal demons and self hate will disappear. Trust me. Flood your fucking shadows with light. Why not!? You cannot truly love anyone else until you truly love your self.

Your mind & ego have a way of hiding your self hate. Healing has and will be difficult but you are on the right path. Stay with it. I promise you it will be worth it. Listen… real love understands that subconsciously monsters exist but when they surface, that true love will be accepting. Totally. Do you know why? Because Love and acceptance knows that suppression does not bode well. How can it?

Your self criticism, judgmental attitude, eating unhealthy, lacking sleep, wasting time doing shit that doesn’t matter or is waste of time, some days pure laziness, inability to accept others as they are, lack of setting goals and continual self doubt are forms of self hate that you need to deal with. They all prove to be moments of non acceptance of yourself. You may not hate yourself all the time, but if you do not heal these issues, the cracks will become larger and larger. We know what you have to do to heal. For one, it starts with forgiveness. That unconditional love. You have to understand and be aware that your mistakes are part of life. You are what you are and you know what you know because of what and where you have been. Mistakes are learning opportunities. You know that already! They are going to happen. By forgiving yourself for your mistakes of the past, you are releasing those feelings, in effect not dwelling on them.

The more you repress these thoughts and feelings, the more vicious they become. Be true with yourself. While, it may be easier said than done, stop fighting yourself man. Just let yourself BE. Real love is a state of non expectation. Total acceptance. Trust me, the world will become a happier and more beautiful place the more you love yourself. Your world is a mirror of you

I want you to stop the self criticism. It isnt constructive what so ever. When ever you notice or feel a destructive thought coming.. I just want you to acknowledge it. And try to understand why you feel that way. From there, just tell yourself you disagree, replace it with something positive. No matter how dumb it may feel in the moment. Then I want you to remind your self that you love and accept every tiny bit of yourself and that mistakes happen. Til Next time…

Health is Wealth: Cardio - Day 16/243 #RUN

If speaking to a spiritual novice during the darker days of human evolution, one might explain God, metaphorically, as if “He” were angry, testing, and judgmental.

To someone a bit more savvy, during easier times, one might explain God, metaphorically, as if “She” were always loving, nurturing, and forever conspiring on your behalf.

And to someone on the verge of a total breakthrough, during the latter days of human evolution, one might explain God by asking them to turn up the music, take off their shoes, walk in the grass, unleash the dogs, free the canary, catch a breeze, ride a wave, dance every day, get up early, take a nap, stay out late, eat chocolate, feel the love, give stuff away, earn it back, give some more, and laugh.... Really.

Really, really.

Catch a breeze!
— The Universe

HRV Score: 54
Relative Balance: 7 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 8hr 11min
Overall morning mood: Felt like I slept pretty well and in a pretty good mood. I did feel a little rushed and stressed but felt thru it and let it go as quickly as I could

Home: Yoga - Day 16 - Eazy Breezy Beautiful Yoga

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C1 Class.

  2. Average HR: 106

  3. C1 class was slower flow Vinyasa class with a warm room but not near as hot as the C2 class or Hot Yoga class. I loved it.

Gym:

  1. Run South Island, NZ: 0%

    1. 60min

    2. 6.53mi

    3. Ave HR 138

    4. EG: 00 feet

Notes: Yoga was awesome today. I enjoyed our instructor, she was knowledgeable and I really like when they take the time to show alternative poses to certain moves. The C1 class was a bit slower flow vinyasa and the room was not quite as warm. Still broke a sweat. I went directly to the gym from Yoga as is was my cardio day and after about 30min I felt like I had trouble keeping my heart rate down. I had to hop off or walk twice to get my heart rate to drop back below 146 although I was able to keep my HR under 146 the entire run with the exception of those two spikes where is jumped up to 159. I think my mediocre HRV score, empty stomach and perhaps my music was the culprit. I think from now on, I am going to try and listen to really mellow calming music or lyric-less music on my long, aerobic runs.

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Your ego competes and compares yourself to others. Your true self knows realizes that you have to no reason to compete or compare with anyone. The battle is within.

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: You had a good day, but you still woke up stressed and over thinking. It was reflected in your HRV score and your inability to go back to sleep when you woke up significantly too early. Here is the thing though.. As Maryam Hasnaa says, you gotta forgive yourself for your fuck ups. Hold yourself accountable but that is part of self love…forgiveness. You did a pretty good job at feeling it through and letting it go. That was largely due to your yoga practice with Adrienne. You felt it immediately, didn’t you? I know you did. You felt it through your neck, your shoulders, all the way down your spine.

When we get frightened, we want to control everything, and then we shut off the flow of our good. Trust life. Everything we need is here for us.
— Louise L. Hay

When you start to give your ego names, you can differentiate the ego from your true-self. It is a Buddhist technique. The benefit is that it allows you to separate the idea or the feeling from yourself and with that you accept it, its place, and then consciously decide if you want to believe it is truly a good idea or not…to act on it or not. You have to realize the voice is not you. Do not attach to it. The ego will have you believe that it is you, believe me. Your ego will do its best to pound it into you. The beauty of it all, is these thought patterns or repetitive thoughts become options to you. The more you try to suppress them, the stronger they become and they are going to blow a fucking gasket at some point down the line. You have dealt with this enough. That is why you are on this path. To let this shit of the past go. You want the choice, over a reaction. Reactionary measures rarely outweigh the proactive. Shooting from the hip man, time and a place and this ain’t the time, nor the place.

Within your true self is a constant state of love. Don’t forget that. That is what they mean when they say you are God, we all are God. God is entirely with in us. You, your true self is love. You need to relinquish control. Let it fucking go. This another ego trick. There is no lack of love when living your true self. Your true self overflows with love, man. Come on! You, along with the majority of people have been fucking brainwashed into thinking that people act a certain way when they are in love. They don’t. They act in accordance with how they feel about themselves. It is not a reflection of you… And when you don’t see it, you try to control others into acting a certain way that fills these perceived holes or lack. All Control is, is an attempt to gain approval through force. Is that really what you want? How can you actually trust that? If you manipulate or force someone into doing or acting a certain way, how can you possibly fucking trust that they believe or feel what it is that they are doing or saying? You are doing nothing but sucking the life force out of them. Selfishly, it’s pathetic and absolutely ridiculous to live that way. It’s like torturing someone for information. At some point, they are just going to tell you what you want to hear. That is no way to go through life. Believe this…. you act in a controlling manner, know that you feel unloved… and in that, you are not in sync with your true self. There is no fucking lack, dude..Chill!

Knowing your own darkness, is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people
— Carl Jung

Unconditional acceptance of yourself is all you need to silence the voices. You are going to fuck up, that is the nature of the beast. Learn from it, work at it and forgive yourself. Most importantly, forgive yourself. You conquer this ego, and as the Hindu’s view it, “ The ego is a serpent that, once mastered, can be worn around the neck as an adornment.” This is not to say you need to kill your ego, quite the opposite. It truly is your friend, but you, your true self needs to be in the driver seat. Got it? Good. Practice that shit. You know what it going to foce you to practice, Yoga. Meditation and self love dude. SELF LOVE. It’s time for you to get your ass to bed, you know you need the sleep. We’ll start on some more self tomorrow perhaps.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health Is Wealth: Stability Circuit - Day 15/243

There’s not one person on Earth who’s here for the same reason as you:

Finding and celebrating YOURSELF.
— The Universe

HRV Score: 49
Relative Balance: 1 (sympathetic) - Compared to my personal baseline my sympathetic activity was abnormally high. To avoid over training or over stressing it was suggested that I prioritize rest today. Suggest activities were breathing work, walking and light mobility work.
Sleep: 7h 34min
Overall mood: Woke up at 4:30a and couldn’t fall back asleep. Then was really annoyed with such a low HRV score. However, my workout for the day fell in line with suggested actives so it was all good.

Core Power Yoga:

  1. Yoga: 60min C2 Class.

  2. Average HR: 108

Gym:

  1. Warm Up Hike: South Island, NZ: 6%

    1. 20min

    2. 1.31mi

    3. Ave HR 102

    4. EG: 594ft

  2. Stability Circuit:

    1. I do each exorcise back to back with no rest until the circuit is completed. I went for three rounds today

    2. 60min

    3. Average HR: 95

  1. REACH-BACKS - 15/SIDE
    2. CLAM SHELLS - 15/SIDE
    3. PRONE COBRA - 30SEC UP/30 SEC REST X4
    4. HIP EXTENSIONS - 20 W/10 SEC HOLD AT TOP
    5. SEATED TUMMY VACUUM’S - 25 BREATHS
    6. PRONE PLANK - 60/90/120 SECONDS

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Know what you want and try to go beyond your own expectations
— The Spy

The Corner of 8th & Insanity: The corner of 8th and insanity is really just conversations with myself working on self love. Focusing on my life’s next chapter really. I’m not really sure the destination yet, but what I realized is that as long as I enjoy the day to day, it really doesn’t matter. I have joined a local yoga studio here and plan on completing their teacher training this spring along with training for a marathon in June. Again, who knows. But…Who cares? I read a lot. I am sure that some posts here will just be note keeping, others study notes and probably a lot of just talking to myself. Because…fuck it, why not?

I am reading As Within, So Without By Karen Neverland. So far I find it to be fantastic and has made me reflect upon my life more so than much of what I have read. Well, that isn’t true but I think it uncovered itself in my path for a reason. Perhaps it was just the right time to read it? Ehh

I love this idea that the ego is a serpent. And once I master it, I can wear it around my neck. A Hinduism belief. What is the ego. Thing is, the ego isn’t necessarily bad. It doesn’t view things as right or wrong. It has no moral compass. Its just in survival mode. Always. Survival or non-survival... All that we can do to control it, is love thyself with unconditional acceptance. By doing you can listen to it and your true self can decide if you want to listen to it. It has plenty of names… self hate, stress, anger, worry, control, approval, self doubt. The list goes one. The ego is all those voices in your head telling yourself to take the safe route. The easy route. It’s no wonder you have failed to commit to almost everything in your life. Maybe not everything but everything at the same time. I’m talking unwavering commitment. That faith. Fucking commit. Self hate though. Self hate is that voice of doubt. That cycle. Doubting your ability. Doubting your success. Doubting.. doubting… Take the damn leap. Let it go and be present!

The problem I see with humanity today is we don’t truly know ourselves anymore. We have the nine to five job, we have the house, the children, the bills, the television, the hobbies, and the errands that we run every single day, and we eventually begin to believe that this who we are.
— Ben Stewart

Were going to train your ego like a dog. Your ego, wants to make you happy so it seeks approval. What you feed your ego will ultimately decide how this relationship will work moving forward. Luckily for you, it may only take a few minor adjustments and listening. Listen to your ego. I said, “Listen. That doesn’t mean act.” The ego will present it’d ideas but it is up to you how and if you will use your ego’s advice. Your ego attaches to these labels and ideas and when you listen to it, it grows. You have rewarded your ego for it’s idea. If you should choose not to listen to your ego, it will learn that, that idea was not in favor and will stop presenting it in the future. Free yourself of these labels. Why label yourself when you can be infinite? You can be and do anything.

Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselvs
— Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

Your ego clings to rationale and creates these stories that justify the poor decisions you have made. Not even poor, but fucking pathetic, boring and safe. You know your real self. You know deep down you are special, you have something special, a gift. You lack the commitment and you care what other people think of you. You walk the line, sometimes reaching your leg way out there barely letting those toes touch on the other side. The fact that the majority of your life, you have had different interests than most the people that surrounded you is the only reason you can say that a sliver of you doesn’t give a fuck what people think. You need to fucking jump. Take that fucking quantum mother fucking leap and jump with two feet. Ego. I am not your ego. I am that self that is telling you that you have let your ego hijack your entire fucking life and enough is enough. Fuck the facts, fuck the odds, just jump. And do it for you. You are no longer sharing these blog posts. Nobody is going to read them, so it doesn’t fucking matter. You might as well let it all out.


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health is Wealth - Week 3 Schedule

MONDAY: STABILITY CIRCUIT
YOGA DAY 15 - Half Hour Half Moon Practice


TUESDAY: CARDIO - AEROBIC RUN (75min)
YOGA DAY 16 - Easy Breezy Beautiful Yoga


WEDNESDAY: STABILITY CIRCUIT
CHIROPRACTIC & PT WORK
YOGA DAY 17 - Happiness Boost Yoga


THURSDAY: REST DAY
YOGA DAY 18 - Wonder Yoga


FRIDAY: Stability Circuit
YOGA DAY 19 - Breath & Body Practice


SATURDAY: Stability Circuit
YOGA DAY 20 - Heart Practice


SUNDAY: AEROBIC RUN (120MIN)
YOGA DAY 21 - Joyful Home Practice


LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


Health Is Wealth: Cardio Day - Day 14/243

And if they try to deny their own existence, they will live life bitter and die. So you must learn to follow your destiny, whatever it may be, with joy.
— The Spy

HRV Score: 57
Relative Balance: 6 (sympathetic)
Sleep:
8hr 48m
Overall Mood & Energy:
Meh.. It was a late weekend. Wasn’t in bed early enough and could feel it when I woke up

Home: Yoga Day 14 - Mindful Hatha Yoga Workout
Gym - Cardio Day - Low HR (Aerobic Run - Needed to keep mine under 146)

  • Yosemite Warm up 4%

    • Elliptical

  • Run - New Zealand to Grand staircase 2%

    • 60 minutes

    • 6.64miles

    • Average HR 133

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LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.


My initial thought with this blog was to use it a way to hold myself accountable and allow people to follow along. However, moving forward I am just going publish as if nobody is reading this. As I think I would prefer it that way. I knew I would enjoy yoga and have evern more than I thought. So I have decided to enroll in a teacher training program. I wont be following along the Yoga With Adriene anymore, I will be attending classes regularly and then my 200hr teacher training will begin on Feb 20th.

Again, as I evolve and grow, so will this portion of my blog. I am going to combine and use it as a training log and journal. As of right now, I see it broken up into a few sections for each day’s entries.

  1. qotd

  2. hrv

  3. sleep

  4. mood & Diet

  5. workout routine

  6. yoga practice

  7. Journal entry

Health Is Wealth: Cardio Day - Day 13/243

All my life, I thought of loves as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that’s a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who give him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.
— Eleven Minutes

HRV Score: 58
Relative Balance: 9 (Parasympathetic)
Sleep:
7hr 43m
Overall Mood & Energy:
Rested and Great

Home: Yoga Day 13 - Endurance & Ease
Gym - Cardio Day - Low HR (Aerobic Run - Needed to keep mine under 146)

  • Yosemite Warm up

    • Elliptical

  • Run - Trinity Mountains

    • 60 minutes

    • 6.83miles

    • Average HR 133

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LIVE FEARLESS. NOT RECKLESS.