HRV Score: 53
Relative Balance: 8 (sympathetic)
Sleep: 9h 5m
Overall morning mood: Felt fucking fantastic. Got plenty of sleep and was coming off the previous day’s good mood. Super proud that I was able to get to the floor and meditate both yesterday and this morning. Will keep the ball rolling and incorporate it into my morning routine to force the habit.
Meditation: 15 minutes
Home: Yoga - Day 23 - Freedom & Forgiveness
Gym: Stability Circuit (Active Recover Week - Half Sets) 2x
Walk - GrandStaircase Warm Up 6%
Ave Hr 124
Trinity Mountain Run - 20 minutes
Average HR: 138
Standard Pull Ups - 3 x 10
Dumb-bell Squats (Dumb bell held under chin) - 3 x 15 @35lbs
Standing Cable Pulls - 3 x 20 @20lbs
Standard Push ups - 3 x 20
Hip Extensions on Stability Ball - 3 x 20 W/5sec pause
Dumb bell Chek Press - 3 x 15 @10lbs
Stability Ball Seated Cable Rotations - 3 x 12/side @ 15lbs
Russian Leg Curls - 1 x 5, 1 x 4, 1 x 3
CorePower: C1 Class
Average HR: 101
Notes: Class was taught bought by Ellen. She was great and inviting from when I walked in. Definitely smiling. Class was amazing. She did assist me with a seated forward fold. I have come a long way already in that position, but I want to get my head to me knees.
Can’t say I learned anything in particular other that my old bod is still a bit tight! haha. During the chair to twist poses, I was doing my best to keep my knees in line. I was wondering if one knee started to drop, did that mean I was twisting from my hips and not my core? I mean to ask after class but I forgot.
After attending classes for a week, it feels a lot better flowing from pose to pose, as I have a better idea of what they are. I appreciate the early cues, as in maybe 3-4 breathes prior to the transition. Where I have noticed the most improvement is really just in my overall flexibility, It has only been a week, but i have noticed it especially in pigeon. It feels so damn good sinking those hips all the way to the ground. If I had to pick on thing I learned in this class particularly, it would be that flow from chaturanga to up dog. I was kind of blending them together and not breathing thru them correctly. It will all come! Patience, and self love, which was the intention I have been setting for most classes. I am calm. I love myself. Every class, my breathing improves, which is awesome ;)
The Corner of 8th & Insanity: First off, I want to say that I am proud of you for taking the time to sit down and meditate yesterday. And believe it or not, again today! Every nitwit on the interweb has a different number, but you know what they say. It takes time to force and create a habit. I want you to continue to force yourself to sit down and meditate every day, at a minimum for ten minutes. Can you see how calm an relaxed you are. It’s been a hell of a lot easier sitting back and making conscious decisions hasn’t it? I bet you haven’t even let a single thing get you worked up the last couple of days. You know, you have Yoga to thank for that as well. This is a new chapter for you, I am proud of you. Keep at it.
Tonight we shall discuss fear a bit before I kick your ass to bed. Fear and worry are pretty close to one in the same. Listen, none and I mean none of this shit, fucking matters. You have to realize that first and foremost. You have been force fed a lie your entire life. Everyone has. Like there is this lack of anything you want on this planet. There is not. It is this giant circle jerk of bullshit. Go to school, get good grades, go to more school, get a job, work in a fucking box so you can buy a car and then a house, then you can remodel your goddamn kitchen. Then show it off on facebook, oh while you are at it don’t miss happy hour. How is it that it socially acceptable to revolve your whole fucking life around alcohol anyway. You know man - you got it right long ago. What is the point of drinking that poison just to piss that money out thirty minutes later? I dont get it. I know you don’t either. The point is, all of these things that seem to be these needs in people’s lives are really just shit that doesn’t matter. If you simplify your life, you eliminate stress, fear and worry from it. I know were on the same page on this. Am I preaching to the choir? I got off topic, I tend to rant.. so do you.. hahah We have that in common. Lets get back to this…Fear…Worry…
When you feel stress, epinephrine is at work in your body for quite a while. The question is, how healthy and how happy do you want to be? Because here is the deal, the more you let fear and worry run rampant within yourself, the more unhappy and unhealthy you will be. Stress is the silent killer. As you have seen since you started yoga, you have been calmer and more relaxed as a result. Your mind is clear. You really are starting to get it aren’t you? The beauty of this, is it is a giant puzzle for you to work through and I am happy you are enjoying it. Your fears are only fears of your ego. Remember that. And what do we do when the ego present itself? You take a step back, you breathe and accept it. You address it and make a conscious choice. You have to learn to love your fear. Why? It will help you transcend it.
There is an African parable that should help you understand a little better; When lions hunt on the savanna, they divide into two groups. The stronger group hides on one side of the prey. The weaker group goes to the other side and growls as loudly as possible. The prey then runs from the roar and their escape leads them right into the strong group’s trap. Moral of the story? In times of worry, or fear run towards that fucking ROAR. As you battle it our, poor choice of words…as you retrain your ego please please please remember that addressing your fear is no different than any other name you’ve given your ego. It will free you and that is what you want. You want that freedom to live consciously.
Get comfortable being uncomfortable. That is what is going to get you where you want to be.